Random thoughts these days
2026.04.26
I’m just going to write down my random thoughts here in bulleted list style, one after another.
I was really happy that so many people seemed to read my “Jun-kissa Log” (o^―^o) Thank you so much!!
This morning, I woke up thinking, “Oh no, I have to go to work…” and immediately felt depressed, but a few seconds later I realized it was actually my day off. That little event that happens sometimes definitely ranks third in the “small but genuinely happy moments” list.By the way, second place is-when that happens and I can hear the sound of rain outside.First place is- Friday night, when I’m lying there thinking about what I’m going to do on my day off tomorrow.
I really really love interracial or international queer romance dramas way too much, and I seriously need more of them!!! (Interview with the Vampire and Heated Rivalry completely ruined my taste in the best way lol)
Joy Division still sounds so cool even now. I listen to Depression music like them or super noisy Hyperpop when I'm depressed or nervous. They really help me more than any healing music.
I want to travel to pre-handover Hong Kong in the 90s. Honestly, more than any country that exists today, I want to visit that chaotic Hong Kong.
Working itself is painful (´;ω;｀) "So, you can change jobs!" No, there isn’t even a job I actually want to do. I’m not interested in promotions either. To me, work is just a place to earn money. I can’t find any sense of purpose or fulfillment in it.
I paid with cash at a convenience store today, and it took me just a tiny bit longer than usual. It's only a tiny bit. But then the cashier turned to the customer waiting behind me and said,“"大変"お待たせいたしました(Sorry for the "long wait ".)” I’m not mad at the cashier. That’s not it. But People who pay in cash feel small. Everyone is so in rush these days.
I feel a bit cheeky about adding a clap button at the bottom of my blog. It’s included by default on other blogging platforms, so that’s fine there, but I’m adding it myself here.I feel like it's more obvious that I seek validation. But to be honest, I can’t deny it. That’s exactly how it is lol I’m just looking for some reaction. Neocities is literally my third place. Anyway, I just leave it.
